Thursday, August 2, 2007

The Don't Look Back Program

Okay, so the title is melodramatic, borrowed from the only movie that really makes sense to me at this moment, Something's Gotta Give. OPL came and left again. I don't know what's going on. Neither does he. I don't feel like I can answer any questions. All the answers are maybes. I just don't know. I'm pretty devastated, but I've also decided to remember one of my favorite quotes: Writing is like loving. You think that the real boon is the publishing, when actually it's the writing just like you think that real boon is being loved, when it is actually loving. I'm a big fool, I guess. I've decided to keep on loving. (It's better than being hate-filled, I guess, though perhaps hate is more entertaining.) But I also have mucho to do and that is where you blogoversians come in. I have three weeks to get things done. Big projects: moving, teaching prep, writing/publishing. I figure I'll do a little bit of teaching prep and writing/publishing in the morning to early afternoon, then pack, pack, pack in the afternoons. Maybe some exercise in the evening. A wee drinkie or three after that. Look at that! It's a whole life. And I'll be blogging the misery for you, folks! Don't you worry!

Mr. Tabby is not looking good. I'm taking him to the Fabulous Vet Doctor tomorrow. Oh and by the way, I turned my dissertation in. I actually ordered my academic regalia (yes, totally late so now I'll be hooded in a rental -- whatever). Life is moving forward, sort of.


Sisyphus said...

Duuude. Chin up. Hugs from me and the cats --- we're rootin' for ya.

I will respond with a quote from the sole movie that makes sense to me in the midst of my dissertation marathon, What About Bob: "Baby steps. Baby steps."

Just keep focused on the little picture, one little step after another, and you'll get stuff done despite the enormity of the projects or the shit being thrown at you by life. Plus, if you make Bill Murray's character your mentor, you'll think everyone loves you and won't notice the one or two people who you annoy to death, heh. :)

And keep me posted on the Cheneyesque undisclosed location of your new secret bloglair.

medieval woman said...

I'm rooting for you as well! It sounds like you got a lot on your plate and I'm sending you good mo-jo. Also, I hope Mr. T feels better - are you going to bring him to Adventure U?

I want the password and new info as well!!


Dr. Medusa said...

I am wishing you the best of luck with all of it! I feel like I should offer some movie-line advice now as well, but sisyphus's is hard to top and all that pops into my head in my current work frenzy lately are curses from Harry Potter.

Your plan sounds like a good one. Keep us posted on how you are doing.

Nik said...

It seems to me that whenever one big change happens, every other big change seems to follow. The OPL (other pacific lover?), the Adventure U, your cat, remind me of my past year's complete upside-downedness. I'm sure you'll feel like you were over-worked and overwhelmed, but ultimately like it was worth it.

Maude said...

just remember what ole jack burton always says..."what the hell."

from big trouble in little china.

combined with baby steps, you got it.

love to mr. tabs.

Earnest English said...

Thanks all. I guess I'm lucky (ha!) that I have so much to do that I can't really spend all my time crying and whining (though I find that such things do slip into one's day whether you plan for them or not). No, but really, I'm totally sad but hopeful and know that I have to focus on getting stuff done. I really appreciate your good wishes. All y'all. I'm trying to do things in baby steps. But lo and behold! It's the weekend!